random.

things you probably didn't know about me:

1) i need three pillows. i sleep poorly with any less. i need one pillow under my head, and one on each side. i toss and turn without this symmetry.

2) there are always pictures in my head. when i close my eyes, there is always some random picture in my head of something completely unrelated to my thoughts or situation. sometimes it is a cartoon. sometimes it is a photo. sometimes it is a painting. right now when i close my eyes, i see a man in a navy blue suit and a burgundy tie with his arms stretched out in the air in front of a white background with three green stripes. some favorites have been an acoustic guitar filling with water and expanding like a balloon, and a cartoon parrot perched on the white house.

3) north to alaska with john wayne is my favorite movie -- i have seen it more than any other movie by far.

4) i practice conversations that i anticipate having in my car or in the shower (out loud). sometimes they make me cry. sometimes they make me laugh out loud. sometimes they make me angry and i have to remember that the conversation didn't really happen before i see the people i was practicing the conversation with.

5) when i am very sad and can't stop crying, i like to eat grapefruit with my hands. i peel it like an orange and eat it in wedges. it's usually juicy and drips down my elbows. it's incredibly soothing. like reverting to infancy.

6) sometimes when i'm driving, if there are shadows on the road, i imagine that the shadows are crevices and i picture the car jumping over them. sometimes i whistle the sounds of the car going up and down.

7) when i was little, i had a lot of cabbage patch kids. my favorite thing to do would be to set them up like a display window. one time i set them up in a beauty shop. i positioned some in little chairs with little pieces of fabric i had cut and put around them like capes. one had a shampoo bottle in her hand that i put iridescent paper coming out of so it looked like shampoo.

8) boiled crawfish is my very favorite food of all the bounty of foods God has provided. i think part of the reason i love them so much is that i get to tear them apart with my bare hands. it's the twisted part of me.

9) if i could change my facial structure to look like anyone in the world, i would want to look like her:

zooey deschanel (favorite actress)

or her:

natalie imbruglia

10) i get ready in the morning without the lights on.