simplicity.

it's not always when things are at their worst that i want to run away. sometimes it's when things are just settling down... sometimes it's when things empty out completely that i get terrified of simplicity...terrified of how much work simplicity requires. the more of a thing you have, the more expendible each is. but as things narrow down, each becomes so much more valuable. suddenly the fear of losing something, now so precious, makes it almost more alluring to throw it away. it is so much easier to leave than to be left. and i realize how paralyzing the fear of being left can be. and i realize how uncomfortable it is to be compelled and paralyzed at the same time.